We All Fall Down

So I've been reading the book We All Fall Down by Nic Sheff.  I thought I had done a blog before this on the first 100 pgs of the book- I don't think it saved lol. But this book is seriously my favorite book; for the time being. This book is the following book of TWEAK which is also by Nic Sheff. I'll do a different blog over TWEAK. But in this book, We All Fall Down, he gives even more interesting stories of his life; such as success and failures he just recently had to deal with. In the begining you learn he's in a detox center or you could just call it rehab..He was got caught when he broke into his mom's house when he was trying to steal her old computer to sell--needed $$ for drugs. His mom and dad told him that he either went to jail or went BACK into rehab for the thousandth time. He's been there for awhile now and supposdly had make really good progress, until Sue Ellen shows up. Sue Ellen isn't there because of drugs, she's there because she's basically mentally unwell, she's had serious issues with her parents and her eating disorders that came from it and all kinds of other things. At first, I thought nothing would come of this but now that I'm as far into the book that I am, I'm realzing- I was wrong! Soon the staff at the rehab takes notice and Nic has to sign a contract agreeing to have no contact whatsoever with Sue Ellen, inlcuding being in the same room, of course Nic agrees; he's VERY good at minipulating the system there. Once he leaves the meeting with his councler, he writes a letter to Sue Ellen explaining the situtation and saying that if she has the same feelings he does to meet under a tree after curfew; this is 2 of the things he had agreed not to do with Sue Ellen. Anyways, she meets him and now im just waiting to see how things evolve from here.

I think I find this book so interesting because it's so different than the lifestyle most people, including myself, live. I mean I know one person who went to rehab but she's my cousin and maybe I just have a different outlook on it because of that. But anyways, I think it's so, uhhh..I don't know how to explain this but its strange almost that someone could let theirself take such a downfall and not want to get back up until they've got no choice (well besides dying I guess)  and be able to look back and write a book on it. I can't believe his parents were able to deal with all the stuff Nic had put himself and them into. I give them credit on being that strong. I plan on finishing this book soon because I REALLLLLLLLLLLLY wanna know whats gonna happen! This book for sure has my reccomendation.

Current, week 2

Still reading We All Fall Down by Nic Sheff

pages this week: 300

total pages: 620

“It's like if the music is loud enough I won't be able to listen to my own thoughts. ” 

“I feel just, you know, defeated. ”